Remembering Jon: Here one Day, Gone the Next

[Note: A version of this story appears in Faces of Suicide, Volume 4]

Remembering Jon: Here one Day, Gone the Next

Remembering Jon: Here one Day, Gone the Next

Sweet. Gentle Soul. Big Hearted. A Big Kid. Generous. These are all words that have been used to describe Jon. Let me tell you about my dear son …

Jonathan was a planned pregnancy and a repeat C-section, and was born the morning of October 1, 1976. I wasn’t sure if his name would be “Jordan” or “Jonathan,” but the first time I nursed him, I knew he was Jonathan. Or Jon, which I favored. Or Jonny, a name his sister used immediately.

Being a Kid

Remembering Jon: Here one Day, Gone the Next

Jon was a happy baby, with an infectious laugh. And, even as a very young child, he had some strange and endearing behaviors.

When we started giving him solid food, he’d make his preferences known. If he found a certain food really yummy he’d hum as he was eating it.

While at a family dinner, Jonny (around 3 or 4 years old) asked for a second helping of cheesecake. I said, “Oh, you really liked that didn’t you?” and he responded, “Well, I wasn’t humming, was I?” I guess asking for seconds didn’t necessarily mean he really liked it. Ha! It seems he knew (and embraced?) some of his idiosyncrasies.

Jon seemed to feel safe in small, enclosed spaces. In fact, when his dad came home from work at dinnertime he’d ask where Jon was and I often replied, “Still in his crib.” Although I tried to take him out after his nap, he fussed but smiled contentedly when placed back in the crib for another hour or two or three!

As a young child, he continued to seek out small spaces, and we’d often find him curled up asleep in his closet.

Super Neat and Very Curious

Always very neat, Jon liked things organized in exactly the right way. When he was just a toddler riding in my shopping cart, he made an upset noise as he pointed to a box of Frosted Flakes that was sitting in with the boxes of Cheerios. He needed order in his environment and I had to move the Frosted Flakes to its rightful place.

Beginning at pre-school age, Jon frequently asked neighbors and family members if they had anything that was “bwoken,” because he loved taking things apart (like TVs or refrigerators) to see what was inside. Although fascinated with the inner workings, he had no interest in putting them back together.

Jon was curious about other inner things too. He removed the foot-high flagstones surrounding our large backyard, wanting to see what was underneath. Much to our dismay, however, he had no idea how to stack them back up. Jon did this not once, but two or three times.

Not only did Jon have a lot of curiosity as a child, but he also had a lot of strength. I vividly remember one time that I talked on the phone (for probably too long) and Jon played in the downstairs playroom. By the time I got off the phone, I was aghast to see that he had moved every piece of furniture against the steps. How could such a little kid move all the furniture? Somehow we managed to get down the stairs and move everything back.

In addition, Jon moved all the furniture in his room, too, more than once, even as a wee little kid. Sometimes, angry with his parents, he’d move all the furniture to the doorway so we couldn’t enter. Even later as an adult, he continued rearranging furniture – his roommate said he’d come home more than once to a totally rearranged bedroom.

More about Jonny…

Jon had delayed language development and displayed symptoms of aphasia, which is a language disorder that affects a person’s ability to communicate. He could recognize faces but couldn’t remember the names attached to those faces. So he called Lisa, the teen who babysat every Saturday night for several years, “Babysitter.” Jon knew that Aunt Judy and Uncle Denny were a couple, but somehow he couldn’t remember Judy’s name and called her “Unk Denny.” And more than once he’d get his Aunt Bonnie’s attention by yelling, “Hey Lady.”

Even as a small child, Jon exhibited a lot of fears. When he went for kindergarten registration, for instance, they wanted to test his hearing. He screamed and carried on because he was afraid of the earphones and refused to put them on. In addition, I remember the many times he ran away from meat the medical office (and I had to chase him through the lobby) because he didn’t want to see the doctor.

I think Jon’s happiest times were pre-kindergarten age. Photos of him show a happy, laughing child, filled with energy and mischief. I couldn’t leave him alone for a minute when he was under the age of 4 or 5 because he’d get into trouble BIG TIME.

Remembering Jon: Here one Day, Gone the Next

School Age…

Once Jon got to kindergarten, some of his happy carefreeness disappeared. A few classmates made fun of him. He still liked to suck his thumb and when he did, his first finger gravitated into his nose. Some of the kids started calling him “Booger” and that name stuck for years, as did other unfavorable names such as “Loser.”

In the years since, I have forgiven these kids for their bullying although it still makes me sad. My belief is that before Jon incarnated he decided that he wanted to learn self-love and he asked his soul family to play different roles. These kids (while they were in spirit form) volunteered to help by becoming his classmates and calling him names. Although Jon’s soul set it up this way, once he was in physical form he bought into the bullying and, unfortunately, believed he was a loser. How sad.

Trained to work with learning disabilities, I had prayed to not have an LD child because I knew their challenges and frustrations. But Jon turned out to be both ADD (Attention Deficit Disorder) and LD. When Jon entered the first grade, I made sure he had an Individualized Education Plan (IEP) to help him manage in school.

Even with the IEP, however, Jon found school challenging and did not do well. We spent many evenings going over the spelling words for the week, for instance, but he just couldn’t retain the information and always did poorly on the spelling tests.

I thought school would be a more pleasant experience for him if he got involved in extracurricular activities. I should have listened to him when he said he didn’t want to do after school basketball – I signed him up anyway but he just sat on the sidelines. He tried soccer, and that was okay. Of all the activities, he liked baseball the best. He really enjoyed the thrill of getting a hit, but when he was in the field, his mind wandered and he forgot to chase after the ball. Although he was right-handed, he batted leftie: a sign of mixed dominance, which is often associated with developmental delays.

While in elementary school, Jon received some help with a speech therapist for his speech impediment. He had a lisp and had trouble pronouncing some words. The speech therapy worked and people could understand him better.

I also enrolled him in drum lessons and he had fun with that. It was fun for me too, to watch him grinning ear to ear as he banged away mercilessly on the drum set. I was glad it wasn’t in my house!

But it seems, he never seemed to quite fit in. He didn’t have much confidence in himself, and it broke my heart. I saw his sweetness, his good heart, and his desire for acceptance. Yes, he received love and praise at home, but got a different message from some of his peers at school. Because of his poor grades and the words of his classmates, Jon took on core beliefs such as “I am not enough” and “I am stupid.”

In upper elementary school Jon had two friends, both named Danny, and he liked to hang out with them. But they often got in trouble. Like the day they walked over to a new house being built and thought it would be fun to throw rocks at the windows that were lined up on the ground ready to be installed. I heard the crash a street away! Jon got in big trouble and had to make payments for the damage.

Maybe that’s when Jon’s dad and I decided he needed to see a psychotherapist. Jon went every week for a while but he didn’t want to talk very much. After many months of seemingly no progress, therapy was discontinued.

Secondary Schools

When Jon was in 7th grade, our whole family – Lenny (his dad), Ali (his sister, 3 years older), and I – traveled to the Sierra Tucson Treatment Center. We did a “family week” there to try to solve some of our familial problems. During the week, Jon met and became infatuated with two cute twins from California. These girls said they would be back to the Sierra Tucson adolescent unit when it opened in a few months. Both Ali and Jon said they wanted to come back too.

Several months later, I caught Jon and Danny drinking in the woods behind our house. I remembered that Jon had said he wanted to return to Sierra Tucson. I saw this as my opportunity to pull him out of the challenging situation he was in. Kids at school still saw him as a loser, and he continued to make poor choices with his friends Danny and Danny.

I quickly made the arrangements and flew him out to the adolescent treatment center. His dad and I didn’t necessarily think he really had a drinking problem, but as parents we knew something had to change and we latched onto this. Sure enough, although everyone in his group introduced themselves saying, “Hi, my name is ___________ and I’m an alcoholic,” Jon said, “Hi, my name is Jon and I am a potential alcoholic.” Ha!

Jon liked being in Tucson and he seemed to like being with the kids at the treatment center, even though the twins didn’t come. Upon his completion, the advisors helped us choose the next best step for him. We agreed on the Kildonan School in upstate New York, which focuses on each student’s gifts rather than their shortcomings.

What a great choice! Kildonan was life changing for him. This school serves dyslexic students, and the dorms were even named after famous people with dyslexia, such as Hans Christian Anderson and Amy Lowell. Jon blossomed; he took to heart that he was dyslexic and not stupid, and discovered that he was really smart in math and sciences.

Post High School

After high school Jon decided to move to Tucson and live with his newly divorced sister and her 2-year-old daughter, Jordan. (Her name was a total coincidence – Ali had no idea that I had considered naming her brother “Jordan.”)

A loving, caring uncle, he helped take care of his niece when Ali was in school. When Ali got involved in a relationship and moved in with her boyfriend, Jon moved in with me.

He wasn’t sure what he wanted to do. Because he always loved Florida, Jon decided to enroll in Lynn University in Boca Raton, but it wasn’t a fit for him and he dropped out. Then he discovered a 2-year associate degree program in CAD (computer assisted drafting) in his beloved Florida, and he enrolled.

September 14, 2001. Graduation day. The world had turned topsy-turvy on Sept. 11th and I was hoping flights would be re-instated so that I could attend Jon’s graduation, a momentous occasion. Lenny got in his car (in Cleveland OH) and drove down to Florida. I got on the first plane to leave Tucson after the September 11th terrorist attacks, and walked in just as the students were lining up to march down the aisle. It was a happy, proud day for all of us.

The job market had dried up after the 9/11 terrorist attacks, and Jon couldn’t find employment. He decided to move back to Tucson, live with me and look for work. Although a job almost materialized, it didn’t. It was hard for him to live with me – Jon was an adult and I tried to help but he often perceived it as meddling in his life.

Jon’s friend Dave invited him to come back to Florida – to live and work with him there. Jon and Dave had good times together and then, when Dave got married and had stepchildren, they all lived together in a big house in Celebration, Florida. Jon was thrilled. He lived with people who really loved and cared about him and he got to go to his favorite places all the time – Disney, Epcot and Universal.

After a year of being together, Dave and his family moved to another state and Jon found an apartment outside Orlando and a CAD job. He still loved to visit Universal and Disney and eagerly took guests there whenever he could.

Because Jon said he wanted company and wanted to take people to the places he loved, I organized a visit with a group of my friends and their kids. He arranged for a VIP tour of Universal and proudly showed off what seemed like his home – Universal and the other parks. Jon was in his element!

In addition, his friend Lenay would fly in from Phoenix with her son and they’d spend time at the parks. Although Jon was chronologically a grown-up, he still had a lot of kid in him.

Remembering Jon: Here one Day, Gone the Next

Some of Jon’s most cherished moments revolved around adventure and escape. In particular, he prized his Bar Mitzvah trip to Egypt and Israel. He loved his summer trip with youths to Israel, valued the once-in-a-lifetime experience swimming and playing with a wild dolphin in Belize, and proudly helped his nieces go shelling in Jamaica. High up on that list, however, was his fascination and wonder with Universal Studios and Disney World.  Places like the Islands of Adventure and the Magic Kingdom stoked his imagination and fueled his curiosity for adventure. Yes, Jonny was simply a kid living in the body of a thirty-five year old.

Remembering Jon: Here one Day, Gone the Next

Several times a year, Jon flew to Tucson to visit me and especially his sister and her family. Perhaps his greatest adventure was spending time being an uncle to her kids – Jordan, Rylee, Zoe, Talia, Rorie, and Ashton. Ali recognized that her brother had an uncommon ability – as a single man – to be unaffected by all of the madness, chaos, messiness, and disarray that accompanies life with little ones.

Whenever he’d come in, his nieces would fight over him – all wanting Uncle Jonny time. He loved the attention, he loved being with them, and they adored him.

Remembering Jon: Here one Day, Gone the Next

Jon prided himself on his ability to handle babies and little kids. When Dave and his wife Sheila had twin daughters Jon called me and boasted: “I did it, Mom. I held one crying baby in one arm and the other crying baby in the other arm and they both calmed down and stopped crying. I still have the magic touch!”

He loved being with kids and was so good with them. In many ways, he grew up with Ali’s children – particularly Jordan, who was born when he was still a teenager. She had him wrapped around her little finger; he loved taking her to the parks in Orlando and he’d buy just about anything she wanted.

In addition to being with the family, whenever Jon visited us in Tucson, he’d also visit Lenay and her son – either she’d drive down from Phoenix or he’d go there.

Jon loved nice things and was a consumer of the highest order, purchasing quality furniture and quality clothing for himself and others. He loved plasma TVs, his Tempurpedic bed at my house, being first to view the opening of a hyped sci-fi movie, seeing if he could get an upgrade on a flight he was soon to be boarding, and eating out at expensive Sunday brunches. Although the humming had long ago stopped, we could still see the intense pleasure food gave Jon, and he loved going out to eat. When he visited us in Tucson, Ali wanted to cook meals for the family and Jon would insist that he take them all out to dinner.

In many ways, Jon had a beautiful generosity of spirit. He remembered anniversaries and birthdays and would do anything for anyone. Not only would he call me on Mother’s Day, but he would also call his aunts, his sister, his grandma and any other mothers he felt close to.

Jon was still meticulously compulsive about making order in his life. He had a huge – and organized – collection of CDs and loved gadgetry like the compact DVD player he took on flights, and the PlayStation and X-Box games he’d routinely play. He even loved all those games – like Farmville – that you can play on Facebook.

The games were another kind of escape and adventure for him. He enjoyed challenging himself, celebrating even small victories. Once, he took the Tony Robbins “Unleash the Power Within” course. Jon was so proud of himself that he walked across fire coals with his bare feet. I can still picture the huge grin on his face whenever he boasted about it.

Although I urged him to get involved in other personal growth activities, the Tony Robbins workshop was the only one he ever attended. My heart ached knowing that Jon had few friend and few enjoyments other than video games, new movies, and theme parks. I could sense his loneliness, although he always said he was “fine.” Feeling frustrated with my inability to help, I suggested that Jon find a hobby or take some classes or join the local synagogue to meet other young people his age, but he didn’t.

As a Libra, Jon sought to enhance the relationships he had with friends and family. He often expressed love as a son, brother, uncle, grandson, and nephew, but he also wished to express love in personal relationships (beyond family), which, unfortunately, eluded him.

When the recession hit, Jon was laid off from his CAD job. Although he had some money to tide him over, he immediately started to look for another job – which never came to fruition. Without work keeping him tied to Florida, he travelled more often to Arizona to visit family in Tucson and his friend in Phoenix.

The End

September 2011. When Jon came to Tucson to visit family again, we had no idea that he came to say “good-bye.” He celebrated Jordan’s birthday and hung out with the family, and Lenay and her son came down to visit.

Although I knew that he owned a gun, I bought his story that it made him feel safer since he lived in a first floor apartment. Reading his journals, I discovered that Jon had thought about suicide ever since he was a teen. He said he didn’t like himself, thought he was ugly, and many times wrote about ending his life.

Wednesday, October 12, 2011. That morning, Jon sent texts to family and friends telling us, “I just wanted to let you know that I love you.” Totally unaware of what this might mean, I simply wrote back and said, “Thank you, I love you too.” Alison, however, felt concerned and asked if it was a suicide message. He assured her it was not, and he reassured her by discussing the restaurants they’d go to in a few weeks when he returned to Tucson.

Monday, October 17, 2011. Dave, Jon’s best friend, called Ali because he was worried that he hadn’t heard from Jon all weekend. It was unlike Jon to not return his calls or texts. I wasn’t concerned, convincing myself that Jon pulled a “Jonny” and decided to go to Las Vegas or something and knew we’d be upset that he was wasting the little money he had left. Alison, on the other hand, felt frantic and called her dad, Lenny, to send someone to investigate. Lenny called the apartment manager. When they opened Jon’s apartment door, they found his body.

We learned later that on October 12th Jon had packed up his whole apartment, sent the texts, wrote a suicide note, and then shot himself in the heart.

Although he had told everyone and probably tried to convince himself that Lenay was just a good friend, he had hoped for more. She got married on October 7th and he chose to end his earthly existence 5 days later.

Jon left a suicide note that said, in part:

“I, Jonathan Hershey Beck, decided the time has come for me to die. I am doing this because there is nothing left for me… I do not want a new job. I do not want to move to a new city. I do not want new friends. I am ready to move on beyond this human form to whatever exists after…I am not killing myself because I am depressed, sad, or lonely, or anything else along those lines. I am doing so because I feel it is time to move on. I have been debating this for some time now….”

Although our family is not religious, I am very spiritual and believe that we incarnate many times in different bodies and that our soul exists after our body has died. I had no idea that Jon believed any of this.

“To Mom and Dad, I love you very much. Please do not blame yourselves for my actions. You two did a wonderful job raising me and I am grateful for having such loving wonderful people in my life….

It’s nice to hear that Jon didn’t blame us, his parents, but it’s hard for any parent not to blame oneself after a suicide. I had repeated thoughts of, “If only I had _____.” Yet I am grateful that I never thought that Jon’s choice to end his life was my fault.

“To my amazing sister, I leave knowing that your girls will grow up to be such amazing women that will make you proud to be their mother. You have done such an amazing job raising them. Please tell them that Uncle Jon will always love them.

“To my friend Dave…you have always been a good friend to me. Sorry I was unwilling to tell you what was going on in my life…

“To Lenay – you were a good friend of mine…. As I have said many times in the past and it still remains true to this day, I will always love you.”

Remembering Jon: Here one Day, Gone the Next

The Aftermath

Oct. 17th, mid-afternoon, I received the worst news of my life when I picked up the phone and heard Lenny screaming over and over, “He’s dead, he’s dead!” I shrieked, I wailed. I somehow managed to dial the phone and tell my good friends what had happened and they rushed to my side.

Although I don’t particularly believe in hell, I started to worry that maybe I was wrong and Jon would go to hell. I asked my spiritual teacher friend, Morgan. She assured me that God is a loving God and there is no such thing as hell. Her words comforted me.

Several of my friends (Robin, Dana, Carol, Barbara) have abilities of a medium. Through them Jon conveyed the following info…

Jon said that he was glad that no one found his body right away because it gave him some time to get acclimated. Whew! This relieved the huge guilt I had been feeling that it took 5 days to discover he had died.

Once the body and note were found, Jon had to feel what everyone was feeling at one time – the anger, hurt, grief, rage, and shock. Everything. I think that if there is a hell, that was it.

He was so sorry for what he had done. Jon realized right away that it was a stupid act, and he asked for our forgiveness and to not be angry with him.

He told us again and again that he was fine, he was great, and he was in a wonderful place.

Several times he repeated that it was stupid to kill himself and no one should ever do it. His actual words were, “I crossed myself over in a stupid way.”

A few weeks later I contacted my favorite professional medium, George Lugo, and Jon came through right away.

During the call, George started by saying, “I have a young man here who keeps insisting that I tell you that he lost weight.” Ha! After Jon had quit smoking (a few years earlier), he put on some weight. When he was visiting, I suggested that he follow the food plan that Ali and I were using to lose weight and he declined. It’s funny that the first words from him were that he had lost weight.

Jon said it wasn’t painful to die and that his grandparents were there to meet him when he crossed over. During the call, Mr. Neatnik Jon twice said (through George), “I can’t believe I ruined a good couch.”

Through the years, Ali and I have talked to George and other mediums and continue to get messages from Jon. He says he is great, and that he is helping other young people adapt when they cross over.

Jon was a gentle soul with a huge heart. He loved taking people to the parks (Universal, waterpark, etc.), he loved buying things for his nieces, and he loved making people happy.

I believe he was undiagnosed Asperger’s: he had trouble connecting with his peers, he often didn’t understand body language or language subtleties, and he was a bit odd.

Furthermore, I believe that Jon, at the soul level, chose a life path that was much too difficult for him and he needed to call it quits. He had no idea how his death would impact all of us, and what he needs now, more than anything, is our forgiveness.

It’s been more than five years since his passing. Jon is talked about and celebrated with my daughter and grandkids a lot. Every year we have a birthday party for him. Ali either prepares his favorite foods (such as club sandwich and a special dessert) or we go out to one of his favorite restaurants (like Cheesecake Factory).

The first birthday after his death was very hard. Ali and I tried our best to be somewhat upbeat for the sake of the children. Each year it’s been getting easier and easier to celebrate Jon and remember the good times. We usually share special Jon stories and we always laugh. The laughter is so healing.

The worst thing that can happen to a parent is losing a child, which can totally destroy the parent. Even worse is a suicide. I know the pain and the agony. I also know that it is possible to not just survive such a tragedy but that it’s also possible to thrive. Because I know first-hand that there is life after tragedy, I am currently writing a book to give bereaved parents hope that they can survive and thrive.

My Survival Tools

Here are a few very important tools that I used to help me recover from my son’s suicide:

  1. Support system. My spiritual family and Facebook friends know how to send energy and whenever I thought I was drowning in grief, I asked them to send me energy and it kept me afloat. In addition, I had more spiritual support as my connection with Source (God, Universe) intensified.
  2. Energy Psychology. Many years ago I had created an upgraded version of EFT (Emotional Freedom Techniques) called SourceTapping® (download the script for free at I used it daily to keep my energy moving, take the edge off the pain, get rid of the post traumatic stress around learning of the suicide, and heal the grief.
  3. Feeling the feelings. There is no right way to grieve and I allow myself to have all my feelings. Even 5 years later, the grief will pop up at some unexpected times, and I welcome it, witness it, and let it move through.
  4. Forgiveness work. Although I was very angry with my son, I am able to forgive him. He did what he felt he needed to do at that time. They say that “resentments rot the container they’re in” and I choose to let go of the resentments and forgive. I used SourceTapping®, Ho’oponopono (an Hawaiian forgiveness technique – “Thank you, I love you, please for give me, I’m sorry”), and lots of prayer to do this.

I currently start each day in meditation and ask Jon for messages. As I dress, I place his pendant around my neck, to wear it close to my heart. I end each day by saying “Good night, Jon, I love you.” Although my life is full and I am thriving, I love and miss Jon and really wish he were still here. 

Remembering Jon: Here one Day, Gone the Next

ABOUT THE AUTHOR: Meryl Hershey Beck, Jonathan’s mother. Licensed counselor, author of Stop Eating Your Heart Out: The 21-Day Program to Free Yourself from Emotional Eating, and creator of SourceTapping®. Meryl is in communication with Jon daily, during meditation, or through a medium. They have an easy relationship now and are actually more connected than ever even though he is not in physical form. She is co-authoring a book to give grieving parents hope that a fulfilling life is possible after your child dies –Loss, Survive, Thrive: Bereaved Parents Share How they Grew Through the Worst Upheaval of Their Lives (working title). Read more about Jon at or his Facebook page.

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A Better Life with SourceTapping®


A Better Life with SourceTapping®

Are you familiar with Tapping, such as EFT (Emotional Freedom Techniques)?

It’s mentioned more and more by mainstream folks and even in the media. And athletes at the Olympics have been seen tapping!

I continue to be pleasantly surprised by the increasingly far reach of tapping. For instance, I wrote about tapping on a Facebook post and several people commented that they do tapping – one does it for the relief of pain, one does it to help manage stress, and one does it to reduce anxiety and fear. I had no idea these folks used this technique.

As a licensed professional clinical counselor, I learned EFT in 1997 from its founder, Gary Craig and began using it immediately. [In case this is new to you, it involves tapping on specific acupressure points on the face and body while thinking of the pain or problem.]


Why SourceTapping®?

Even though I had a very positive experience with EFT, it didn’t hit the mark for many of my clients. Although they loved the tapping experience they were unable to do it on their own, forgetting where to tap and what to say. In addition, my 12 Step Recovery clients wanted  the addition of ‘Higher Power’ within the technique.

SourceTapping® is an upgraded or evolved version of EFT, and this is how it differs:

  • You begin by creating a partnership with Source (Higher Power, Universe, Higher Self) so you are not tapping alone.
  • You tap into the Divinity Frequencies.
  • It uses a script so you can simply read the words rather than having to remember what to say.
  • It clears the issue (pain, challenge, craving) down to its roots without your conscious awareness of those roots.
  • You release many feelings through the tapping and the breath.
  • In the second round, you anchor in a positive feeling or state of being.
  • Using the Pleasure Breath, you increase the feel-good hormone oxytocin.

A Hit with Clients and Students

I have been using SourceTapping® with clients and teaching it in workshops and online classes since 1997, with a 99% success rate. The only person that I remember it didn’t work for was a teenager. She had no relief at the end of the tapping round so I asked her what she was thinking about as she tapped and she replied, “I was wondering when my mom was picking me up and what we’re having for dinner and what homework I had.” Without focusing on her issue, she was unable to experience any change.

Other then that one person, I don’t remember anyone else I’ve worked with not finding it helpful. I think SourceTapping® is the ‘cat’s meow,’ but don’t take my word for it – here are just a few of the many comments I’ve received:

“I prayed to find a way to let go of old hurts, tapping is that answer to prayer. Tapping has been very effective! I have used tapping to lower my stress level with family issues, work issues and food struggles. I noticed definite improvements in my everyday peace-of-mind. I noticed I stopped feeling overwhelmed and started to accept that I am doing the best that I can. Now I feel more in harmony with life.  I lost most of my feeling of despair. I now have solutions to my emotional eating habits. I discovered a way to finally let go of issues that had plagued me for many years.” ~ Lori Clark

“I was truly shocked that just your one class healed me of my life long obsession of daily consumption of peanut M&Ms.” ~ Elaine Maez

“I felt like I found a new gold-mine in this simple tool and am looking forward to using it not just for food and cravings, but everything in my life!” ~Sara

“It was nothing short of a miracle. I’ve always had a huge craving for melted cheese. Since the tapping, I’ve been to the grocery store a few times and have NOT purchased cheese!”~ Julie Seibert, Internet TV Host 

“I am impressed with SourceTapping® – a noticeable difference in like 2 minutes or so.” ~Dan Horner, Tucson, Founder Dan Horner Productions

A Hit with Other Therapists and Coaches

Psychotherapists, psychologists, coaches, and others who work directly with clients often rave about SourceTapping®…

“SourceTapping® is a wonderful, easy-to-use treatment method that clients can use on their own. I find that it is so good for deep emotional work, to open the way for deep healing. I have used this technique with great success.” ~ Barbara Stone, PhD, LISW, DCEP, Professor at Energy Medicine University

“As a professional energy psychology practitioner I really appreciated the bringing in of a Higher Power in SourceTapping® and the explicit mention while tapping of shame, embarrassment, and grief because they are such an ubiquitous aspect of emotional, psychological problems.” ~Alfred Heath, Licensed Professional Counselor

“I was trained in SourceTapping® many years ago. I used it then for myself and my teenage daughter when we were dealing with trauma-related issues. She is now 27 and still uses it when she wants to balance her emotions and shift her thoughts. I am a social worker in an outpatient clinic in rural Alaska. I use both EFT and SourceTapping® with my clients. But I prefer SourceTapping® because of the simple, supportive script and the spiritual component. Please use any or all of this testimony if it will help spread the word about this gentle, powerful tool for transformation.” ~Beverly Rivard, LCSW, MAC

A Hit with People Using the Script on Their Own

Anyone can download the script for free at And I created an online course, “Tap Cravings Away: The Fastest Method to Eliminate a Craving.” Periodically, I receive comments from people who have downloaded and used the script on their own, such as:

“I did the tapping sequence and it was the most effective I have ever experienced. It’s really amazing…quite incredible.” ~Sheila Yount

And some of the hundreds of people (from 22 countries) who have taken the online learning class have left stellar reviews.

A Better Life with SourceTapping®

“I did SourceTapping once and I can really feel the difference. I will surely continue the ST. It’s almost like magic: everything changes in a few minutes.” ~Mary Jones

“I have not overeaten since I viewed this course, this is a miracle!!!!!!!! This is the best thing I have ever seen to overcome cravings. It is much better than any other tapping I have ever seen, and she makes it fun and easy and simple to do. I am so happy that I now finally have an effective tool that works to overcome bingeing, something I have struggled with my whole life. GET THIS COURSE, IT CAN CHANGE YOUR LIFE.” ~ Alexis Hart

“I’ve done EFT tapping in the past. This was a little different & I think that it was actually more effective for me. I’ve never had the score I’d given an issue drop so dramatically or so quickly. I don’t really know why it worked better, I’m just really happy with the results ( I went from a 10-1 after only one session). I highly recommend this course.” ~ Irene Villarreal

“I have done tapping before but I have never partner with my Higher Power. I also found myself using this to release additions to crappy thinking and not just craving so by switching out words, I found I can use this for many issues.” ~ Hanny El-hizawi

Now You Can Become Proficient in It!

I continue to offer the SourceTapping® script as a free download.

But you and I both know that unless a new skill is used and practiced it will probably end up in the bottom on the toolbox and you’ll forget all about it.

How would you like the chance to be immersed in SourceTapping® for hours resulting in confidence and competency? You will have the chance to clear your own personal issues, such as

  • Old Traumas that continue to trigger you or drain your energy (major traumas – divorce, abuse, accidents, incest, etc.)
  • The emotional upset around any and all small “t” traumas (like the time you were undeservedly punished or when you weren’t invited to a party).
  • Body aches and pains (I usually find it best to work with the feelings around them).
  • Stuck energy (when you’re feeling depressed or life just feels blah).
  • Emotional eating issues (get rid of cravings and tap away those uncomfortable feelings that lead to overeating and bingeing).
  • Feeling lethargic or having low energy (this will get your energy moving and increase feelings of well being).
  • And strengthen your connection to Source (whatever word you choose).

You will also learn how (and when) to do the tapping for others who are in pain, feeling deep grief, or have other problems to clear.

A Better Life with SourceTapping®In addition – you will learn how to tap into The Divinity Frequencies to make this an even more powerful technique. 

Three Options

SourceTapping Training Program

1.Fill out an application for the online SourceTapping® Training Program. Two Tracks – one for personal use; one for professional use.


Energy Psychology Conference2.Come to the SourceTapping® Intensive on May 22nd in San Antonio, following the annual Energy Psychology Conference (Early Bird Registration closes March 27th). 

Canadian Energy Psychology Conference

3.I will be offering a pre-conference SourceTapping® Training on October 12, 2017 at the 19th Annual Canadian Energy Psychology Conference to be held in Vancouver, BC October 13-15, 2017. 

I am really excited to get SourceTapping® out there for the public as well as professionals. I hope you will jump on the bandwagon and learn SourceTapping® with me. My workshops and trainings are always fun as well as educational!

Questions? Contact me at

Love and Blessings,

A Better Life with SourceTapping®

Energy Psychology – for a happier, healthier life!

Energy Psychology – for a happier, healthier life!

Some background…

In 1990 I became a licensed professional clinical counselor in Ohio and learned to do mostly talk therapy with my clients.

Each week they left our session feeling great.

But then the next week they returned with the same issue, problem, or concern.

Although I really wanted to help these clients, it seemed I was only providing a Band-Aid solution. Each week we’d go over the same issues – with no permanent change.

Within a few years, I sought out energy-based modalities to incorporate into what was becoming, more holistic therapy sessions…

Cutting Edge Approaches


Mid 90s – I studied EMDR (Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing). My clients loved this slightly bizarre approach (waving my fingers in front of the client’s eyes!).

Once I realized that the session was sometimes like opening that proverbial Pandora Box and all kinds of stuff would come up, I extended the length of the sessions. Up and out – to be healed!


Then in 1997 I learned several energy psychology techniques… including EFT (Emotional Freedom Techniques), which seemed much simpler and often took less time.

Fortunately, I had the opportunity to study EFT with its founder, Gary Craig. Although I thought it rather odd, I saw that is was very effective. Tapping on specified acupressure points and repeating a phrase, an individual can reduce physical and emotional pain – sometimes in just minutes.

My clients loved EFT. But they wanted a spiritual component and a script to remember what to say and where to tap.

Consequently, RITT (Rapidly Integrated Transformation Technique) was born. Through the years it has evolved and is now known as SourceTapping®.


Energy Psychology - for a happier, healthier life!

SourceTapping® incorporates several different techniques:

  • Using a script and releasing down to the roots from BSFF (Be Se Free Fast).
  • The tapping on acupressure points from EFT.
  • Crossing the midline from EMDR.
  • Holding and breathing at each point from TAB (Touch and Breathe).
  • The Pleasure Breath from Braveheart Women’s Oxytocin Breath.

Benefits of SourceTapping®

  1. Free – Download the script and directions
  2. You can learn to do this yourself.
  3. It is easy to use.
  4. Follow the script or change it for your personal circumstances.
  5. Rather than a Band-aid approach, SourceTapping® actually rewires the brain.
  6. You can use it to
  •      Eliminate cravings
  •      Decrease physical and emotional pain
  •      Clear phobias
  •      Heal trauma
  •      Manage stress
  •      Increase energy
  •      Heighten feelings of well being.

My experience

Oh my gosh…I use SourceTapping® a lot, sometimes daily. It changed me as therapist and has healed many of my personal issues and old, emotional baggage.

Energy Psychology - for a happier, healthier life!

When I first learned it, I worked on all the unpleasant memories I could remember – anything that evoked emotional discomfort. Emotional upsets that are not healed drain your energy – tapping is the easiest way I know to clear them. SourceTapping® will clear out any of those not-good-feelings….I used it on the following emotionally charged memories:

  • As a total rule-follower and goody-goody, I was horrified and humiliated when my first grade teacher said I was talking after the bell rang and made me stand in the cloak closet [I bet I am aging myself with that term!]
  • Our family got a pet bird (when I was in elementary school) and I was told to take care of it. I was resentful of the responsibility and mistreated it. Remembering this as an adult, I felt guilty and remorseful.
  • Feeling hurt and disappointed when I wasn’t invited to all the Bar Mitzvah parties in junior high.
  • Remembering some of my parenting inadequacies, I felt guilty and ashamed of my behavior.
  • Having put lots of time and energy into preparing a workshop with a very low response, I felt frustrated and disappointed.

Of course, there were a lot more of these memories. Each time, I remembered the incident and then tapped on whatever feelings it evoked (not the feelings when the event happened, but the feelings as I thought about it in the present moment). The Tapping worked – it was a way of healing my younger part. And now the memories exist without the uncomfortable feelings attached to them!

Two profound experiences using Tapping:       

  1. Eliminating my ice cream addiction. It really is gone – I have had ice cream a few times since doing the protocol and it was like eating a piece of watermelon or a bowl of cereal – NO BIG DEAL. Read how my addiction to ice cream was miraculously transformed in  “I Scream for Ice Cream.” 
  2. I used tapping a lot after my son died at age 35 (Oct. 2011). I noticed, however, that I could not sit in the chair where I had been sitting when I received the news, and I couldn’t talk about that moment – I was traumatized, and for months I exhibited post traumatic stress symptoms. Although I tried to see a local trauma therapist, we were never able to set up a session.  So I took matters into my own hands (literally!)…Every morning I took a walk with my dog and did inner work (my “inner work walks”). I decided that perhaps I could clear that trauma myself by doing SourceTapping®, and it worked! Now I can sit in the chair, tell you who called, what was said, etc. Although I wish I had never received that call, I am able to tell you all about it – thanks to the Tapping.

Energy Psychology – for a happier, healthier life!

Tapping has been nothing short of a miracle for me – to have a tool that is so simple to use and so very effective increases the quality of my life. In addition, clients and others I’ve worked with have been able to effectively use SourceTapping® to clear many feelings and heal a variety of issues.

Energy Psychology - for a happier, healthier life!

I have experienced positive effects of using tapping to heal and transform…

  • Cravings. Not only have I used it to clear my ice cream addiction, I have used it with numerous clients to effectively curb their cravings. In addition, I offer an online learning class, “Tap Cravings Away: The Easiest Method to Eliminate a Craving,” which has been receiving great reviews. Although it sells for $200, you can purchase it for $25 HERE (and use it whenever you want in the convenience of your own home). Also available is a “SourceTapping® for Cravings” video – tap along with me to eliminate those darn cravings!
  • Phobias. I first used Tapping to clear my own phobia of heights. And then I helped others eliminate such phobias as snakes, scorpions, roaches, and spiders. As part of the local NBC “Face Your Fears” series, I helped a woman totally eliminate her fear of snakes – even going so far as petting one at the reptile store! Watch the episode. Read more about eliminating phobias HERE.
  • Emotional Upsets. It is important for your mental health to feel your feelings. However, when the feelings take over and engulf you, they produce emotional discomfort, which Tapping can rectify. If not cleared you keep swirling around in them (not very comfortable at all), use food or another substance to numb out (leading to possible addiction), or try to put a lid on them (and then, like a pressure cooker, they can emerge with force).
  • Trauma. If you are dealing with big T Trauma (abuse, rape, war, natural disasters, serious accidents, robbery, major surgeries, life-threatening illness, living with a mentally ill parent, combat, etc.), it is best to seek out a trauma therapist. The small t traumas, however, can be overwhelming though not as traumatic and can often be cleared by using Tapping yourself. Small t traumas are events experienced as traumatic at a personal level, such as feeling humiliated, being unfairly punished, loss of a pet, divorce, being falsely accused, losing a job, changing schools because of a move, verbal abuse, and discrimination. (Such as my personal list mentioned above under “My experience.”)
  • Stress, Overwhelm, and Anxiety. Just the simple act of Tapping (follow the directions for SourceTapping®) can reduce the stress and allow you to feel calmer and more centered. Tapping helps to decrease overwhelm, manage stress and anxiety. And, as you do so, it will increase feelings of well being.
  • Physical Pain. Although you can tap directly on the issue of physical pain, I usually don’t. Instead, I first ask the level of pain (on a 0-10 scale with 10 being high). Followed by, “What are you telling yourself about the pain?” And then, “And when you hear yourself say those words, how upset are you on a 0-10 scale?” And then we do the tapping. Example: My friend who had just had knee surgery decided to vacuum her bedroom. She hit her knee, was in excruciating pain, and ended up back in the ER. She told me she was telling herself, “I’m so stupid” and when she heard those words her level of upset was a 10. We tapped on releasing the self-judgment and as those numbers decreased, so did the pain – and it became more manageable.

Schedule your SourceTapping® session with me.

Learn SourceTapping® for Yourself

Instead of just taking a one or two hour workshop, really immerse yourself in this modality so you feel competent and capable of using it and make it a part of your daily life to increase your well being.

Enroll in the SourceTapping® Training – for personal or professional use. Mostly online learning plus training calls. Details at

*** OR ***

ANNOUNCING >>>  Experience SourceTapping® Training LIVE May 22nd, following the 2017 Energy Psychology Conference.


  • This post-conference Intensive costs less than the regular SourceTapping® Training Program.
  • In person, live training (rather than recorded group calls).
  • Plenty of hands-on experience.
  • Practice using SourceTapping® on many different issues – cravings, trauma, emotional upsets, and more.
  • Train with the SourceTapping® creator (hehe, that’s me!).
  • Get all your questions answered during this Intensive.
  • Receive additional support after the workshop.
  • [VIP pricing ends Feb. 6th, Early Bird pricing ends March 27].
  • Continuing education hours are available for psychologists, social workers, LMFTs, professional counselors, nurses, physicians, drug and alcohol counselors, acupuncturists and body workers.

Energy Psychology - for a happier, healthier life!Attend this Year’s Energy Psychology Conference

Experience the Energy Psychology Conference for yourself…San Antonio…May 19-22, 2017

This conference is for:

Forward-thinking psychologists, therapists, counselors, physicians, nurses, coaches, acupuncturists, and other helping professionals who:

  • Want to effectively address the whole person in their clinical practie.
  • Enjoy using active and focused therapeutic approaches such as EMDR, NLP, Somatic Experiencing, hypnosis, and biofeedback
  • Want to earn their CE/CME/CNE hours learning content they really care about and approaches that will help them deepen their impact in the world.

Hurry....REGISTER HERE.  VIP registration ends Feb. 6.  If you miss it, the Early Bird registration ends March 27th.

Hope to see you there!

Many blessings,

Energy Psychology - for a happier, healthier life!





A New Spin on an Old Tradition

Would you like a new spin on an old tradition?

It’s mid January, and if you’re like the majority of people, I bet that most of your New Year’s Resolutions have fallen by the wayside.

In my article “New Beginnings…” I presented a different option to making and keeping resolutions.

And now here’s another method…

The following guest blog, “A New Spin on an Old Tradition,” written by my friend and colleague, Dr. Christina Greer, will give you some new ideas about changing habits and behaviors that no longer suit you.

Christina’s expertise is recovery from food addiction, and you can modify her suggestions to fit your personal needs. For instance, if you are not working with a food plan, you can change her suggested “stronger food plan” to “choosing more fresh fruits and vegetables,” or whatever suits you.

A New Spin on an Old Tradition

Aren’t we all pretty sick of New Year, New You resolutions that we never quite keep? And then we punish ourselves when we fail. What sense does that make?

Part of the problem is that we choose changes that are so big and so vast that we just can’t possibly achieve them without some kind of superhuman will, and we know that that kind of dedication gives way as soon as life intrudes, and oh baby, life does intrude!

So, I am going to try something different this year.

For those of you have participated in my boot camps, you know that I try to break things down into manageable steps that can lead to big changes in your life.

What most people don’t realize is that there is more to recovery than just dealing with the food. Of course, most of us get that we need to use the help of a higher power or meditation or support groups to help us recover, but other life matters impact our recovery as well, including the state of our homes (clutter in the home, clutter in the brain), our spending, and our relationships with others.

I have decided then to dedicate 2017 to whipping my whole life into shape with the idea that my recovery will be stronger and longer lasting. While I will strive to do all of these things to a certain degree daily, I plan on focusing on one of the following goals each month this year. And I will blog about them.

To give you the opportunity to following along, on the last day of every month, I will write up a reflection on the task from the month before and introduce the new habit. Let’s do it together!

Goals for each month

January–more and better sleep
February–stronger food plan
March–boosting mood
April–work on the household budget
May–time management
June–get more physical
August–build in more down time
September–have more fun
October–release the past
November–improve my meditation practice
December–relationship building

January–More and Better Sleep

I am pretty sure I don’t need to cite any sources to convince you that sleep is essential to everything. Good, solid, restful sleep and enough of it. Some people don’t need much. Others need a ton. It is to our advantage to find out our sleep needs and fulfill them.

What I know about me and sleep? I am not an early morning person. My brain wakes up at 9 pm. My body wakes up at 9 am. During the school year, it is impossible for me to follow my body’s natural sleep rhythm. My son has to be at school by 8:20 every morning, which means I have to be up by 7:30 am. Even when I go to bed at a very good time, my body still does not feel rested, but I am in this situation for the next 13 years, so I am dealing with it, but not well.

The beginning of term starts out in the best way, but by the end, I stay up later and later to get projects done, which means less sleep. And since he goes to school five days a week, that means less chance to catch up on sleep because there are fewer down days.

My goals for this month (and the rest of the year, of course) is to be in bed by 10 pm.

That is, head on my pillow, covers up to my neck. I will journal and read and then hopefully fall asleep by 11 pm, which gives me my eight hours, which is what my body and mind both need.

To make sleep itself better, I need to make some changes to my bedroom this month too. I need to clear out some of the clutter and spend more time changing the sheets and making the bed cozy and inviting.

I will also be adding a new cool mist humidifier to my dresser.

To get a jump start on SAD, I will set my UV light to come on at 6 am each morning.

To make all this work, there are other actions I must take. Our bags for work and school must be packed and ready to go by 8 pm. My son must be in bed and fast asleep by 9 pm. That means that I have to be done with all of my work by 7:30 pm. Given that I get home at 6 pm, this is going to be a tight semester, but I know that it is essential. I know that this is what I must do. In the end, if the work doesn’t get done, the work doesn’t get done. There’s always tomorrow.

Bottom line: Live deliberately.

This sleep plan will begin January 2. What are you plans for better sleep in 2017?

Looking for some inspiration to get you in the right mindset for 2017? Get a copy of my book, The Optimistic Food Addict: Recovering from Binge Eating Disorder. In this often raw and always honest memoir, I talk about the first three years of my recovery and the disordered thoughts and eating that ruled my life for more than 30 years.

A New Spin on an Old Tradition

                 Christina Fisanick Greer, Ph.D.
                      The Optimistic Food Addict

Christina Fisanick Greer, Ph.D. is a writer, researcher, teacher, and motivational speaker. She has been teaching college English for over 20 years and is the author of more than 30 books. After suffering from food addiction for more than 28 years, she entered recovery and never looked back. She founded a Facebook group for other food addicts in recovery,, and has written several books designed to help others battling this disease. For more information about Christina, see her website


A note from Meryl > If you have eating issues, I can help…

Stop Eating Your Heart OutMy #1 Amazon best-selling book, Stop Eating Your Heart Out is available in 5 formats:

Print version (for those of you like me who prefer turning paper pages of a book and writing in the margins!)


A New Spin on an Old Tradition

Experience an easy-to-use method to handle those darn food cravings, my $200 online course, “Tap Cravings Away: The Fastest Method to Eliminate a Craving” is available for just $25 by Clicking Here. With students enrolled from 19 countries and a 4.8 rating (out of 5), this course not only helps to eliminate cravings but also, in the words of one student, “gives me tools to deal with the anxiety and nervousness that leads to binge eating and overeating.” 

Hope your 2017 brings good health and much happiness.


A New Spin on an Old Tradition


New Beginnings…

New Beginnings…

New Beginnings...

As 2017 starts, many of us are thinking about changes, intentions, and, of course, resolutions!

The trouble with resolutions is they look so good on paper, but that’s often as far as they go!

Here are some of the usual resolutions … how many of these have you made for yourself?

  • Lose weight.
  • Quit smoking.
  • Exercise.
  • Eat healthier.
  • Give up sugar.
  • Get organized.
  • Play more.
  • Spend more time with family.
  • Quit drinking.
  • Get a new job.
  • Save money.
  • Manage stress better.
  • Travel.
  • Stop procrastinating.
  • Get rid of old clothes.
  • Get more sleep.
  • Work on my relationship.
  • Spend less time on the computer.
  • Watch less TV and Netflix.
  • Be more generous.
  • Be less judgmental.
  • Smile more.

If you’ve made resolutions in the past, I bet you see some of them on the list!

So what goes wrong?

Possible Scenario

New Year’s Day. You make a decision to make some changes this year and make a list of your resolutions.

January 2nd (or 3rd or 4th or whatever). You resume your usual life and probably haven’t even thought of those resolutions.

A Different Option

New Year’s Day. You make a decision to make some changes this year and make a list of your resolutions. AND you (1) prioritize and (2) make a plan.

The Plan

Let’s say your number one priority is HEALTHIER EATING.

After you’ve identified what is most important for you to work on, the next step is to make a plan, such as:

  1. Commitment, be specific. For instance you might decide to cut out bread or not eat after 7 pm or eliminate sugar – start with one do-able action;
  2. Write it on your calendar – are you starting tomorrow? The day after? Write your commitment on the calendar to remind yourself;
  3. Tell someone your commitment or invite a buddy to join you in eating healthier.

After a day or two – find a way to reward yourself for sticking with your commitment (it can be as simple as taking a bubble bath or watching something on TV or Netflix or just shouting out, “Hurrah, I did it!”). And continue to reward yourself for sticking with it – you decide what reward you want – buying a new pair of jeans, mani-pedi, whatever feels good to you!

Perhaps, however, you notice that after a few days you haven’t followed through with your commitment and you are mad at yourself. If this happens, you can journal about it – how important is healthy eating to you? Is this something you want to do for yourself? Or maybe this is a “should” and a part of you is rebelling. Journaling will help you get to the underlying reason you didn’t follow through.

Resolutions + a commitment + a plan = the way to really make the changes you want!


New Beginnings...

A tool that can help you keep your commitment (anything from eliminating emotional eating to stopping procrastination to managing stress) is my favorite energy psychology technique – SourceTapping®. It is especially useful this time of year to help keep your resolutions (commitments) and to also let go of the guilt and anguish when you aren’t following through. You know, if beating ourselves helped, we’d all be healthy by now. But it doesn’t – it just makes things worse.

So, if you are disappointed in yourself about the lack of follow through, take out the SourceTapping® script (available at, identify the intensity of the emotions, and do the tapping as directed, saying perhaps “I release these feelings….” Or “I release my disappointment with myself…” Or even, “I release my lack of follow-through.”

My hope is that you are kind and gentle with yourself and that you do make the changes you really want.

Wishing you a happy, healthy new year filled with many blessings,

New Beginnings...




New Beginnings...

PS Do you want some new beginnings for yourself? If you’d really like help in changing a behavior, my “Tap Cravings Away: The Fastest Method to Eliminate a Craving” online course can be used for many issues in addition to emotional eating. 

And I am offering my community (that includes YOU, a reader of my blog!) a huge discount – the course sells for $200 and it’s yours for just $25 when you  CLICK HERE. 

A Facebook friend commented, “Just got through watching your class. You simplify things, even if the issue is not around food. Thanks so much for doing all the hard work to help others.” ~ Jerry Garrison

Visiting Grief During the Holidays

Visiting Grief During the Holidays

When many people think of “the holidays,” it evokes feelings of heightened joy, excitement, and anticipation. You know – sugar plums, holiday cheer and all!

But not for everyone.

Many have heavy hearts and are feeling crappy amidst the Christmas cheer.

For instance, those of us who have lost someone might be feeling an emptiness. Whether we expect it or not, some of us are visiting grief during the holidays and it can plunge us into sadness and longing for what was or what could have been.

Waves of Grief

My personal experience

I remember the first Christmas after my son died… in October (2011)… by his own hand. Mistakenly, I thought that Christmas would be no big deal because we didn’t celebrate that holiday.


Watching families out together expressing glee and joy brought that very fresh grief raging to the surface.

Now that it’s been five years I mistakenly thought that I could breeze through the holidays.

Wrong again.

Thanksgiving was tough. I missed Jon’s physical presence. And now that we are in the throes of what’s supposed to be, “the most wonderful time of the year,” I feel the ever-present tear in my heart. 

Side Note: Our language is so interesting – that 4-letter word, TEAR, has more than one meaning. One – a rip, pronounced TARE, can be the catalyst for the other – the watery fluid from the eyes pronounced TEER. So the tear (rip) produces the tears (from my eyes).

Tools to help deal with the grief

Here are a few tools that have helped me feel the grief but not get pulled under by it. I hope they are useful for you too:

  1. Talk about it. Years ago I discovered that just talking about my feelings helped. But sometimes I forget (how human of me!) and kept my sadness and grief bottled up. Recently, I experienced lots of missing feelings and my dear friend asked how I was doing and I answered her honestly, telling her how sad I felt. After expressing my feelings of grief and loss I actually felt better. Getting it out verbally helped lighten the weight of those heavy emotions.
  2. Journal. Try some stream of consciousness writing and give the words permission to flow. You don’t have to show anyone your writing – you can keep it in a private journal for your eyes only. Again, allowing the words to come up and out of you, in your journal (or with another person), helps lighten the heaviness.
  3. Breathe. When we experience deep feelings, we sometimes have a tendency to hold our breath or not take full breaths. Try taking a full breath now. Just focus on your breath and take a few deep, cleansing breaths. Exhale with a sigh – letting some of those feelings flow out. Repeat. Repeat.
  4. Cry or Scream.  If you can find a private space that won’t disturb anyone (maybe in your car on an empty street), let yourself scream, rant, and rave. If there’s no private space to do it, imagine yourself screaming – with or without words. (It’s surprising how just imagining yourself doing something can be as effective as really doing it…that’s the mind-body connection.) Or perhaps just allow yourself to have a good cry. Finish by once again taking a few deep cleansing breaths. Voltaire
  5. SourceTapping® – you can go through the whole tapping sequence (get the script at or just tap on the grief points – two finger widths below your collarbone. After the grief has been diminished, tap in peacefulness or whatever feeling you’d like, and allow a Pleasure Breath (inhale deep into the belly; exhale with a HA sound and a smile on your face). Repeat the Pleasure Breath two more times.
  6. Do an act of kindness. It could be as small as smiling at a stranger, or perhaps holding the door open for the next person. Or maybe you’ll want to volunteer at a food bank or the Salvation Army, pick up someone’s lay-a-way tab, or donate toys for needy kids. Gandhi quote
  7. Imagine connecting with your loved one. If you could communicate with your loved one, what would you say? You can write it out or just have the thoughts go through your mind. Then allow yourself to imagine receiving comforting words in return. The following is my recent dialogue:
Me: "Oh, Jon, I miss you so much - I see families being 
together and enjoying each other and your not being here 
hurts my heart." (tearing up as I said these words in 
my head). 
Jon (what I imagined hearing): "Mom, I am so sorry. I 
love you so much. I wish you weren't sad."
And then I felt (imagined?) his hands rubbing my 
shoulders; I took a deep breath and felt better.

Know that you are not alone with your grief and that there is support on many levels.

I am envisioning wrapping you (and all the grief-stricken folks) in a warm, cuddly blanket…of love.

For more tips on enjoying the holidays, check out “More Joy, Less Stress.”

Many Blessings,

Visiting Grief During the Holidays

More Joy, Less Stress


Want more joy, less stress?

Thanksgiving has ushered in the holiday season, which usually becomes a busy, stressful time of year for so many people.

Here are 7 tips for more joy, less stress especially during the holiday season:

  1. Engage in activities that you enjoy.

Yes, tradition is important…but so is participating in things that bring you joy. Don’t let the “shoulds” win out – you know that voice that says, “I should decorate my house” (do it if you want to, make it a choice, –“I could decorate my house”).

  1. Slow down. Breathe. Look Around. Appreciate.

During this very busy time of year, so many people are busy rush, rush, rushing around. Become more conscious. Just stop for a moment. Take a deep breath. Look around. See your surroundings with new, appreciative eyes. De-Stressing the Holidays

  1. Start new traditions that bring you pleasure.

    Some ideas:

  • Recycle last year’s holiday cards into decorations
  • Help the homeless – plan a food drive party with guests bringing non-perishables that you then take to the food bank.
  • Set a goal for yourself to smile at one person (or more) each day – and perhaps increase that number each day
  • Try some new recipes so that you’re cooking from scratch
  • Clean closets and donate to your favorite charity
  • Choose to do an Act of Kindness daily (or ___ number of times a week).
  • Pay off a stranger’s layaway purchase.
  • Send Christmas cards to our troops.
  • Ask your friends and family for other ideas to begin a new tradition!
  1. Laugh!

Turn on a funny movie or YouTube video. Try Laughter Yoga. Make yourself laugh – start by saying out loud, “Ha, ha, ho, ho, he, he,” and then repeat over and over again until you are actually laughing.  De-Stressing the Holidays

  1. Eat nutritious food.

Yes, there are lots of tasty treats available now and you might enjoy some. But don’t neglect your basic nutrition to keep you feeling at your best. An overload of sugar or high carb-empty calorie food may please your tastebuds for a few minutes, but then leave you feeling bloated, lethargic, or just not feeling so great. If you need help with cravings, check out the “Tap Cravings Away” course information below.

  1. Let go of perfectionism.

Martha Stewart doesn’t live at your house. It might not be super clean. It might be cluttered. Welcome to the real world where most of us live ­ – we just need to be “good enough” – our houses, our parenting, ourselves. And don’t sweat the small stuff…

De-Stressing the Holidays

  1. SourceTapping® 

   This is my favorite stress-management technique.  Use it to

  • Help manage the stress.
  • Release emotional upsets.
  • Curb cravings.
  • Deepen your spiritual connection.
  • Heal old traumas
  • Increase feelings of well being.

Get your free script and diagram of points at or …

More Joy, Less StressEnroll in my online class, at a special price of just $25 – “Tap Cravings Away: The Fastest Method to Eliminate a Craving.” Discover what cravings are all about and what to do about them from the comfort of your own home and at a time that works for you. Tap along with me to get rid of the cravings and feel more empowered and at peace around food! Click here to enroll at the special sale price of just $25!

Wishing you more joy, less stress – especially during the holidays,

More Joy, Less Stress

Halloween Candy and Beyond

Halloween Candy and Beyond

Halloween Candy and Beyond …The Eating Season has Begun!

Do you recognize any of these right-after Halloween scenarios:

  • “My kids won’t notice if I eat their _____________.” [My mom ate all our Good & Plenties when we were kids, and we didn’t care. But when she got into the Butterfingers, then we were upset!]
  • “As long as there’s leftover candy, I can just eat a little a day.” [And one piece becomes three becomes five, becomes the whole bagful.]
  • “The prices are reduced now, I might as well stock up and save it for the next birthday party or celebration.” [Save it? Whom are you kidding?]
  • “I blew my diet already, I might as well eat it all now so I can start tomorrow without having it around.” [And how much enjoyment is that bringing you?]


Halloween begins what I’m calling “The Season of Eating,” – it starts with the candy at Halloween and goes through the desserts at New Year’s. So much food, so many sweets and pastries around. It’s Halloween candy and beyond for sure!

Dr. Mercola’s article “The Truth About Sugar Addiction”  explains that when you consume sugar, you trigger production of natural opioids in your brain. He quotes Dr. Robert Lustig, professor of pediatrics who wrote:

     “The brain’s pleasure center, called the nucleus accumbens, is essential for our survival as a species… When you consume any substance of abuse, including sugar, the nucleus accumbens receives a dopamine signal, from which you experience pleasure. And so you consume more. The problem is that with prolonged exposure, the signal attenuates, gets weaker. So you have to consume more to get the same effect – tolerance. And if you pull back on the substance, you go into withdrawal. Tolerance and withdrawal constitute addiction.”

In my article, “Got a Sweet Tooth?”  I mentioned some of the statistics about our consumption of sugar and quoted Joseph Schroeder, Associate Professor of Neuroscience, who said:

     “Our research supports the theory that high-fat/high-sugar foods stimulate the brain in the same way that drugs do….It may explain why some people can’t resist these foods despite the fact that they know they are bad for them.”

Halloween Candy and Beyond

Dr. Mercola describes 76 Ways Sugar Can Ruin Your Health

Here are just a few of them…

  • Body changes sugar into 2-5 times more fat in the bloodstream compared to starch.
  • Addictive and intoxicating, similar to alcohol.
  • Feeds cancer cells.
  • Decreases insulin sensitivity, leading to high insulin levels and eventually diabetes.
  • Causes cataracts and nearsightedness.
  • Premature aging.
  • Increases liver size by making liver cells divide, increasing the amount of liver fat.
  • Slows down ability of adrenal glands to function.
  • Increases free radicals and oxidative stress


Are you Ready to Reduce Your Sugar Consumption?

Read labels – making sure to avoid high fructose corn syrup (HFCS)

Check out the infographic to get a sense where so much sugar is hiding…

Halloween Candy and Beyond

Breaking the Sugar Addiction

Dr. Mercola explained, “Sometimes, when you crave food, it is triggered by an emotional need such as wanting to relieve stress or feel a little bit happier after a tiring day. More often than not, people tend to ignore their emotions when considering whether to eat healthy or otherwise.

“I highly recommend the Emotional Freedom Technique (EFT), a simple and effective psychological acupressure technique that could help you manage the emotional components of your cravings. It has been proven to relieve a lot of emotional traumas, abolish phobias and post-traumatic stresses, break down food cravings, and lessen physical pain and discomfort.”

Evolved Form of EFT

SourceTapping® has all the basic ingredients of EFT, which Dr. Mercola highly recommends, plus more – such as…

  • a spiritual component (God, Nature, Higher Self, etc.),
  • a script (you won’t have to remember what to say),
  • releasing many feelings at once (rather than just anger or sadness or one specific feeling),
  • anchors in a positive (using the Pleasure breath that increases oxytocin), and
  • produces feelings of relaxation (and you’ll feel energized).

Ways to Use SourceTapping®…

  1. When you are feeling upset or uncomfortable, you might automatically reach for something to make you feel better (candy? pastry?). Instead, once you become aware of feeling upset (noticing or becoming aware is the key), pick up the SourceTapping® script. It is available as a free download at – and go through both round one and round two to feel more balanced and at ease. 
  2. When you are thinking of a certain food and craving it (often sugar and high fat), grab your SourceTapping® script and do the tapping before the craving becomes unmanageable. [Again, awareness is key – catch the craving before it becomes too intense.]
  3. Halloween Candy and Beyond… If you’ve already eaten the Halloween candy or whatever, you can tap and forgive yourself. Here’s how:

     Grab your script and begin with “I release this issue (having overeaten and feeling stuffed, remorseful, and/or upset) to _______ (Source, Higher Power, God) and then continue with the words in the script.

     At the end, tapping on the little finger, “I totally and completely want to forgive myself for eating more than my body needed/eating so much sugar. And I ask ________ (Source, Higher Power, God) to remove the cravings and the self-judgment now.”

SourceTapping® for Cravings Online Class

Perfect timing to enroll in this class now that the Season of Eating has begun! 

This online class will give you support to enjoy the holidays without a weight gain and without those awful feelings of self-loathing.Halloween Candy and Beyond

Click HERE to enroll NOW in my online class – “Tap Cravings Away: The Fastest Method to Eliminate a Craving” at a super sale of 90% off [for a limited time]. Just because the eating season has begun doesn’t mean you have to participate!

Frances Desmone, one of the students, tapped on her sugar craving and wrote:

“Sugar has always had a hold on me and now I have the tools to continue keeping it out of my kitchen and my mouth. I started out as a skeptic about tapping but it has helped me in many ways over the years. SourceTapping® is on a deeper level.” 
A few days later I received this follow-up note: “I haven’t had any desire since I took your class Meryl! My craving for fruit has also subsided. I feel empowered in starting a new chapter in my health. Thank you for your expert care.”
Halloween Candy


STOP EATING YOUR HEART OUT Introduction- James Baldwin

This Stop Eating Your Heart Out Introduction is an excerpt from Beck, M. (2012). Stop Eating Your Heart Out: The 21-Day Program to Free Yourself from Emotional Eating. (San Francisco: Conari Press).  


DESPITE THE FACT THAT AMERICANS are obsessed with weight and spend over $60 billion a year on diets and diet products, has it done any good?

The media screams out to us on a daily basis: We have an obesity epidemic!

According to the Center for Disease Control and Prevention, over two-thirds of Americans are overweight or obese. Many of the millions of heavy people have an eating disorder, which has the highest mortality rate of any mental health diagnosis, including depression. This diagnosis has received a lot of media attention recently because the American Psychiatric Association recommended that it be considered a separate, distinct eating disorder like bulimia and anorexia.

Though not all obese individuals are compulsive overeaters, experts believe that about seventy-five percent of overeating is emotional eating – using food to deal with feelings. Although everyone turns to food for comfort on occasion, such as hot soup or hot chocolate on a cold winter’s night, or something sweet to chew on after a fight with your honey, the compulsive overeater turns to food as the primary means of coping with everyday stress, anxiety, and other difficult feelings.

We have an emotional hunger. We eat because of an inner emptiness, and some of us become addicted to sugar and refined carbohydrates as a result. “Fast food has become the opiate of the masses,” Chris Powell declared on an episode of Extreme Makeover: Weight Loss Edition. Compulsive eating begins as an attempt to ease the emotional pain, but ends up making us feel even worse.

STOP EATING YOUR HEART OUT Introduction - Fast Food

As a licensed professional clinical counselor, I have worked with compulsive overeaters and binge eaters for over twenty years. In addition, I too am a (recovered) food junkie and spent many years quelling feelings by shoving ice cream or cookies down my throat. Food was the glue that kept me together.

Some folks with excess weight just eat a bit too much. Emotional eaters like me, however, use food as a fix: I abused food just like the alcoholic misuses booze, stuffing myself in an attempt to fill an inner emptiness. For many of us, though, there is not enough food on the planet to fill the gaping hole within our souls. I know – I tried.

During my compulsive overeating days, I spent my time bingeing, hoarding and hiding food, making food my best friend, sneak eating, taking pills to curb my appetite, going to diet doctors, gaining and losing a gazillion pounds, trying different fad diets, hating myself, loathing my body, making and breaking countless self-promises, and feeling helpless and hopeless. I ate frozen food that tasted like cardboard; I finished the food off my children’s plates; I retrieved food that had been thrown away; I confiscated my students’ candy and ate it myself. I had all kinds of sneaky behavior around food, masquerading as the supreme dieter in public and experiencing out-of-control bingeing in private.

My behaviors around food were a closely guarded secret for decades. But not anymore. After years of psychotherapy, working the Twelve Steps, and doing focused personal growth work, I have gained insight and understanding as to why I became an emotional eater at such an early age, and why compulsive overeating became such a driving force in my life. Fortunately, I have recovered from binge eating disorder, and the tools I used are presented throughout Stop Eating Your Heart Out. I share my journey openly so that others may benefit from my experiences.

As I disclose my ordeals with food and out-of-control eating, I am telling the story of millions of others who use food to self-soothe. With the focus on recovery, however, I share the modalities that worked for me, including the spiritual approach I first encountered in 12 Step Recovery support groups.           


As I disclose my ordeals with food and out-of-control eating, I am telling the story of millions of others who use food to self-soothe. With the focus on recovery, however, I share the modalities that worked for me, including the spiritual approach I first encountered in support groups using Twelve-Step Recovery.

No one method will work for every person, and rest assured that successful use of this book does not depend on adherence to a Twelve-Step Program. I didn’t adapt the Alcoholics Anonymous program to my food issues by myself – it’s served as a model for many over the years. Overeaters Anonymous (OA), for instance, began in 1960 and uses the same Twelve Steps as AA, substituting the word food for alcohol. Other Twelve-Step groups dealing with food issues include Food Addicts Anonymous (FAA), Eating Addictions Anonymous (EAA), Food Addicts in Recovery Anonymous (FA), and Eating Disorders Anonymous (EDS). These, plus more, are listed in the back of the book under Resources.

Although many people, including me, have achieved remarkable recovery with the help of a Twelve-Step support group, I know that some of you are not drawn to that approach. And that’s perfectly okay. This book introduces you to a range of wonderfully effective self-help tools, such as Inner Child work, creative visualizations, journaling, and various energy techniques that together can help you rewire your brain to stop craving food.

In my own work as a teacher and psychotherapist I use some approaches that fall under the umbrella of energy psychology. Based in Eastern medicine, energy psychology is sometimes described as needleless acupuncture. It is a relatively new term to describe various modalities or approaches that utilize the body’s energy systems to create change for the individual. Many energy psychology techniques employ repeating an affirmation while tapping or touching acupressure points to release unpleasant emotions or to eliminate cravings. These techniques are highly effective at diminishing anxiety and other uncomfortable feelings that send many of us directly to the cookie jar. In fact, without also working on the body’s energy system, thinking and reason alone rarely work.

Using This Book

I recommend keeping a computer or notebook nearby while you read. Through you’re of course free to mark up the margins as much as you like, this book isn’t meant to be a workbook, so there’s not much blank space.

The bulk of this book is devoted to my twenty-one day program for releasing you from your emotional dependence on food, but first I want to tell you my own story. You’ll find that in chapter one. Each subsequent chapter (except the last) covers three days, with a new tool introduced each day to add to your own toolbox.

You might choose to do an assignment in a day, or you might want to take a whole week to do one. That’s entirely up to you. Of course, if you take more than a day, the process outlined here will take more than twenty-one days. But once you have completed all the assignments, you will have all the tools you need to recover from emotional eating. These are tools that you can use over and over again or just once. However you need them to work, they will. The final chapter of the program, Conscious Living, discusses ways to keep using the contents of your personal toolbox as you continue to forge your new life, free from emotional eating.

For many years, I thought I was terminally unique, but the more I shared myself, the more I realized that others had the same thoughts, the same actions, and the same beliefs I did. If you are anything I was, you’ve been waiting a long time to conquer your battle with food and self-hatred. You’re not alone. Begin this next phase of your journey by turning the pages and encountering many new techniques. Please try them all, and then pick and choose the ones you find most useful to create your own individualized toolbox. In so doing, you will alleviate the compulsive overeating as you transform yourself and your relationship to food. In the words of English novelist and critic Aldous Huxley, “There is only one corner of the universe you can be certain of improving, and that’s your own self.”

Aldous Huxley

©Meryl Hershey Beck and Red Wheel/Weiser

 Many Blessings,

Moment of Introspection




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Stop Eating Your Heart Out is available in 5 formats:

Moment of Introspection

Moment of Introspection

40 years ago…

I was just a young mom – doing the best I could day to day.

I didn’t have the foggiest idea what “personal growth” meant and I certainly didn’t have any interest or thoughts about working on myself.

And then I had a moment of introspection.

Yes, just a brief moment.

I was busy raising my kids, working part time, being a wife, and trying to create a nice home.

And then …. for just a very short snippet of time … I took a look at myself.

I certainly wasn’t wearing rose-colored glasses; instead they had more of a dingy gray tint! And with those dark glasses on, what I saw was scary…

Here’s what happened…

For some reason, one evening after the kids were tucked in, I took out a yellow legal tablet and drew a line down the middle to create two columns – one labelled “+” (plus) and the other “-” (minus).

For probably the first time in my life, I thought about my behaviors and who I was as a person.

And then I began filling in the columns.

Starting with the ‘minus’ column I listed a few things I didn’t like about my behaviors and myself. Then I wrote more… and more. Once I got going, I kept on writing more and more and filled almost every line on the page.

Then it was time to fill in the ‘plus’ column, and  I was stumped. I couldn’t think of anything and finally wrote “a good mother?”

Moment of Introspection

That sheet of paper had two very uneven columns – one side (the minus side) was filled in; the other side (the plus side) had nothing but one remark with a question mark.

What a downer. I hid that pad of paper and tried to put it out of my consciousness.

Although that brief moment of introspection happened almost 40 years ago, I have a very clear memory of it. And it brings with it some sadness about the young woman I was who didn’t have a clue who she really was.

25 years ago…

Another moment of introspection that has remained in my memory: I had the opportunity to attend a 5-day retreat that was filled with personal growth work (by then I had discovered the profound value and self-satisfaction of working on myself).

On the final day, the group’s assignment was to write “What I Love About Myself.”

I didn’t have a yellow legal tablet this time. So I opened my journal and I wrote … and wrote … and wrote…and filled two pages!

Moment of Introspection

It sort of shocked me that I could find so much good to write about. And then I suddenly remembered my experience 15 years earlier and was nearly bowled over.

Wow! What a shift.

At first I felt real cocky about all the growth I had achieved, going from a page filled with my negative characteristics to a couple of pages filled with my positive traits.

But then I wondered, “Did I really change that much?” and  “Was I really a person who had only negative characteristics and now filled with positive traits?”

Nope, that wasn’t it, even though a part of me wanted to take all the credit because of all the years of inner work I had done.

It’s all about perspective…

We talk about people wearing rose-colored glasses which means they are seeing things and people as better than they really are.

For me, though, it was the opposite – it was as if I had on gray-colored glasses that made the world, and especially myself, appear dark, gloomy, and unattractive.

Being a perfectionist, and always falling short, my focus had been on what I did wrong, what I didn’t accomplish, and how I missed the mark. 40 years ago I saw myself as Ms. Imperfection. The warts and the uglies were so huge in my eyes, that I saw nothing else.

At that time, even if someone complimented me, I’d brush it off or give them a “yes, but.” For instance, if a friend told me, “I really like your hair that way,” my response might have been something like, “Yes, but I saw a few gray hairs” or maybe, “Yes, but it really needs to be cut.” 

I could never accept a compliment; I didn’t know how to receive. I had no idea that the proper response to a compliment is a simple, “thank you.”

And, since I sought perfection and always fell short, all that I could see were the places in me that weren’t perfect. Consequently, my self-esteem was in the toilet, so of course I felt crappy about myself.

What changed for me…

During that 15 year interval I had my eyes opened to who I really am.

As I recovered from binge eating disorder, I worked the 12 Steps of Alcoholics Anonymous, which began my life-long passion of working on myself.

I came to believe that we as humans aren’t meant to be perfect, and I am not just a bagful of warts and other ugliness (which is what I had believed). Yes, I do have some warts and other uglies, but that is only a part of me, not my entire being.

Although I tried to be perfect and couldn’t be, that didn’t make me one totally imperfect person.

I am perfectly imperfect…just like every other human being on this planet! And you are imperfectly perfect too! 

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Another way to look at it is a slogan I heard in the 12 Step Recovery rooms:

“God doesn’t make junk!”

Now it’s your turn….

Here’s my challenge for you –

Can you open your eyes to what is good and right about YOU? 

How about taking out a piece of paper and writing your own “What I Love About Myself” list. See if you can come up with at least 50 things and let me know how you do with it!

I see your beauty, do you?

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Love and Blessings,

Moment of Introspection

How about a moment of introspection around your eating …Would you like to get rid of cravings? Want a tool to help stop emotional eating?

Well….you’re in luck!

Moment of IntrospectionSince you are one of my cherished readers, I have a special deal for you >>

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